Embracing My Inner Control Freak

397 days to go.

Here I am working on our wedding website, while chatting with L (I am a fabby multi-tasker) when I realize how ahead of the game I really am. For the past few weeks Q and I (mostly me) have been on wedding mode 24-7. I don't know if it's my inner control freak coming out, if it's because I'm planning my wedding on my own or just excitement, but all can think about is wedding cakes, wedding favors, yada yada yada. At least I have L to talk to. She is getting married not long after us and she shares my control freak tendencies; at least someone out there understands my madness.

I know that compared to many engaged women I have miles ahead of the game. In 4 short weeks I have managed to book a venue and photographer, talked to my bridal party and picked out invitations. I know what my cake is gonna look like and am almost ready to send out my Save the Dates. So why is it that I feel I still have so much to do?

When I was younger I pictured my wedding to be a grand, fantastic event full of flowers, music and a big white dress. As I have gotten older I took a more laid back approach to everything. Get married on an island (we scrapped that idea); keep it small; keep it cheap. But as I sit here typing I can't help ponder ideas to make my wedding day just that extra bit special. I think it's in all of us, control freak or not. I think something happens to you once that ring slips onto your finger. You are brought back to when you were younger imagining what the day would be like when you walk down the aisle. At one point I figured a trip to city hall was OK for me, but now not so much. A years goes by fast. I already feel like I lost time since we pushed our date ahead to accommodate family. When the holidays roll around there wont be much time to plan anything except Christmas dinner and Jolly merriment.

I'm not crazy, I have to tell myself, you're not a Bridzilla, you're just organized. Get the big stuff out of the way first. That way, I can enjoy my engagement and focus on the details that will make me smile when I look back on my wedding day. Keep it in perspective it's not all about me, it's about me and Q.

....Come on....who am I kidding.

Birth of The Bantering Bride

These past few weeks have been pretty good. We told everyone we needed to tell, we had engagement party and I managed to set a date, book and venue and secure a photographer...and may I say all under budget. Then it hit me, these past few weeks, it's been wedding this and wedding that. In the few short weeks Q and I have been engaged I have managed to allow it to consume me. It's all I've been thinking about; I had to take a step back I went to my PC and logged into Female Madness; then I had a thought. Nobody wants to hear about wedding stuff all the time. What to do, what to do ...SNAP! welcome to The Bantering Bride. This is where I will release my thoughts about marriage and wedding into cyber space. I'll ponder, vent and complain my way down the aisle. Thanks for joining me.